Friends

Friends. People who are always soppose to be there for you when you need them, a sholder to cry on, when you cant turn to anyone else. Most importantly friends are soppose to be someone who will always have your back when no one else does. So then why is it so hard to find someone like that, why do they always backstabb you in the worst way possible, talk about you when they think you don't know. Bestfriends are soppose to be like your family. I stopped believeing in those a long ass time ago. I've been hurt, backstabbed, slaped, kicked,punched, and spit at by the one person i thought i could count on, the one who was soppose to be there, who knew what my life was about, the pains i had gone through, and the moments where i just wanted to give up and make it all go away... She used to be my saving grace my sister...my bestfriend. I had it all wrong though, i was just one big joke to her she never really cared and now maybe i realize i should have seen the signs. Friends...who needs them...